And that is just something...that exceeds myself. Not that i am competing against anyone..like to see who can last longer living in a village-like place with dirty water or what.lol. I would say it was an inner struggle....I was struggling against myself. The carnal me wanted to run back to KL...a place of comfort and ease, but my spirit held me back each time. Because when i am away from the hustle and bustle of the city...there the Lord revealed much of Himself.
Praise be to God! Cuz i know if it weren't for Him, i would not have managed to 'tahan' so long for sure:)
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Here's something I believe it is timely for me to share....It is from excerpted from David Wilkerson's online journal (Wilkerson is an American watchmen and intercessor).
A very short but awakening message.
We Are Too Earthbound
Have you noticed there is very little talk nowadays about heaven or about leaving this old world behind? Instead, we are bombarded with messages on how to use our faith to acquire more things. "The next revival," said one well-known teacher, "will be a financial revival. God is going to pour out financial blessing on all believers."
Any message about death bothers us. We try to ignore even thinking about it and think that those who discuss it are morbid. Occasionally we will talk about what heaven must be like, but most of the time the subject of death is taboo.
What a stunted concept of God's eternal purposes! No wonder so many Christians are frightened by the thought of death. The truth is, we are far from understanding Christ's call to forsake the world and all its entanglements. He calls us to come and die—and to die without building memorials to ourselves. To die without worrying how we should be remembered. Jesus left no autobiography—no headquarters complex—no university or Bible college. He left nothing to perpetuate his memory but the bread and the wine.
How different the first Christians were. Paul spoke much about death. In fact, our resurrection from the dead is referred to in the New Testament as our blessed hope. But nowadays, death is considered an intruder that cuts us off from the good life we have become accustomed to. We have so cluttered our lives with material things, we are bogged down. We can no longer bear the thought of leaving our beautiful homes, our lovely things, our charming sweethearts. We seem to be thinking, "To die now would be too great a loss. I love the Lord—but I need time to enjoy my real estate. I married a wife. I've yet to prove my oxen. I need more time."
What is the greatest revelation of faith, and how is it to be exercised? You will find it in Hebrews: "These all died in faith...and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth.... But now they desire a better country, that is, an heavenly: wherefore God is not ashamed to be called their God: for he hath prepared for them a city" (Hebrews 11:13 and 16).
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Reflections.....
You know, there is absolutely nothing wrong with material blessings...And God loves to bless His children! But i can't help but ponder if... that our modern day Christianity has become so full of herself. So full of ourselves. More blessings, more wealth, more abundance. More more more. 'Give us more Lord'. And again i say, nothing wrong with blessings. Please don't get me wrong.:) I love being blessed too.
But the danger comes when our desire for blessings covers and hinders us from the reality of God and that our true citizenship is not here on earth. I know very well that i might be contradicting myself by saying all these....cuz i do admit its a 'dying to self' is continuous process and it is not done overnight. And i still have my desires. But still, i have to say what i feel i should say.
You can walk away feeling very offended and disgusted.. or you can ask God to help you digest His Word in Hebrews 11:13. I can only say so much, but ultimately, the Word of God stands the test of time :)
