*sweeps dust off blogger*
Not that nothing much has been happening over the past 2months..In fact, alot has happened over the last two months.:)
If i could, i would love to update every now and then so i myself can look back on what i've done and be reminded of what has happened in the past. But anyways, one of the reasons why my blog has been lacking in updates is because these days.. i just directly record my thoughts, interesting events, and important stuffs into my journal :)
Blogging is just an avenue for me to share some stuffs which i find may be helpful to some..even if not many..out there.hehe. Anyways, i also dunno why am i talking about why i did not blog....lol
But today, just wanted to share a testimony (like i always do) hehe
Cuz if something great has happened, I believe the person who made that something great happen should be credited. And in this case, its none other than The Lord Jesus Christ! :)
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See, im currently involved in my uni's orientation week (for the new student batches). Im involved in the protocol dept..the job scope which includes doing MCeeing for events, ushering and stuff..
Most of the bros and sis' from my CG are also involved..but they're mostly facilitators..which i think, is much tougher. They barely have any time to rest.:/
Wake up at 6a.m and they work all the way till at 12-1a.m.. ><
I really dunno how i would've managed if i were them.
Really salute~
But i truly believe God knows each of our limits and he assigns us according to which He sees fit.:) praise God for that!
During the MHS (Minggu Haluan Siswa) week, i constantly fell sick. First, it was unexplainable dizziness. Its like, when i talk to someone, i couldn't focus..cuz the images would start to blur and when i stood up, it was like my body was floating and i couldn't walk properly. It went on for a few days prior to MHS. Went to see a few docs, they could not diagnose. Some said it was due to my low blood pressure. Most just gave me dizziness med..which did not work.. and another gave stugeron...which, after i ate, i felt less dizzy.
So came MHS, and i was in a way glad the dizzy spells were less apparent..cuz how am i gonna carry out my duties properly if im constantly dizzy? While i was dizzy, there's nothing much i could do except to sleep. If i read, the word would start to look like they can dance.haha.
But during the first or second day of MHS itself, right after my MCeeing event, i had a terrible stomach pain..I thought.'Why is this happening now?'...cuz i was scheduled for another MCeeing later that afernoon. Seems like it wasn't going away so the brothers from CG sent me to the uni's clinic/PKU. The doc wasn't in so the nurses checked on me and diagnosed it as gastric.
Gave me some meds to take and asked to me rest in the ward while waiting for the doc to come back. But despite taking the med, i still felt a piercing pain in my abdomen..so painful that i had to squat on the floor.And i almost nearly wailed. :0
But somehow or rather, the pain subsided by the time the doc returned..so she discharged me..and bro sent me back to my residential college to get a rest. I was honestly rily in pain and i tried to sleep but could not. Needless to say, all the nights event i could not attend already. But miraculously, the event in which i was supposed to MC was cancelled. In a way, thank God.hehe.
The pain kept coming on and off...on and off..And i was beginning to doubt it was gastric cuz it seemed like it was more of a wind/flatulence problem..which i memang have quite often =.='' Its like my stomach is very bloated. And this truly caused much pain. Even later in the night, i could not get a good sleep cuz the pain kept keeping me awake. The meds did not help.
Next morn, felt better..:) But towards the afternoon, the pain came back. *faints*
I thought it was over..mana tau it will come back again!
I really don't know what was going on with my body..it was like going haywire..
I had my meals, i ate what everybody else ate and drank..And i was very careful with the stuffs i ate..and tried as much possible to get regular meal hours, knowing myself. But yet......... it still plague me.
So, i had to go back to get rest again. Thankfully in the night i wasn't involved in much stuff so i could be excused. But i already missed quite a few sessions so i really was afraid it was going to become a not-so-good testimony to my dept's EXCO. Dun want them to think im lazy or what..
Another day passed and the new day dawn. Lo and behold, when i woke up, my stomach/ abdomen pain was gone. But the next thing i found out, the right side of my head was pounding. I really was speechless by then. Now what? headache? haha. It was beginning to get bizarrely funny~ And bro KY said my body is not in coordination.swt. =.='' Which is true to a certain extent.
So i woke up and went back to sleep again in order to get the pain away. Once i woke up in the evening, felt much better.:D so i went for the night session.
Mid-way thru the non-muslim session, i suddenly had this weird nerve problem.
My eyes was blinking and jumping uncontrollably..It was like they did it automatically and i could not control them at all! And while my eyes blinked profusely, i could not talk nor look people in the eye.
It occured every 5-10 mins.
Boy, was it a nuisance. Cuz i would talk to people half-way and had to excuse myself...Or i would be covering my face for like few mins and they would ask me 'Are u ok?'.
This syndrome out of all the sickness i had was the most worrying of them all. Cuz i could not control it. And worst of all, i dun even know what kinda syndrome is this! Nobody knew..including the bros and sis. And i was actually worried it could be my past epilepy playing tricks on me. Oh no..I was seriously terrified. But i braced myself and attended the night session.
But halfway thru the session, i could no longer take it. It was so severe that it i was losing control over my facial muscle movement. Yep, it was that scary. So the sisters arranged for the welfare unit to send me back to my residential college. And this was when i really had enough of all this nonsense. I really had enough of first the dizziness, then the stomach prob, headache and this eye thingy.
I stumbled upon a book entitled ' Turning Hopeless Situations Around' by Kenneth Hagin. Felt like i could identify with the title..opened it and started reading. Meanwhile, the twitch of eye blinkin sensation stopped.
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To sum up the message of the book:
King Hezekiah was a character in the Bible who was sick to the point of death. God Himself had pronounced a death sentence on him and told him to set his house in order cuz his days were numbered. He was diagnosed with an incurable disease. (Isaiah 38:1-3). But unlike most of us who seek medical help first or look to man for solutions, what Hezekiah did next was out of the ordinary.
'Then Hezekiah turned his face to the wall, and prayed unto the Lord, And said, Remember now, O Lord, I beseech thee, how i have walked before thee in truth and with a perfect heart, and have done that which is good in thy sight. And Hezekiah wept sore.' (Isaiah 38:2)
Notice Hezekiah 'turned his face to the wall'.
Turning his face to the wall meant that Hezekiah that turned away from his symptoms; He turned away from his sensations; He turned away from his own sufferings; He turned away from symphatizing relatives; He turned away from medical skill, and He turned his face to the wall.
And with his face to the wall, Hezekiah could see only one thing : GOD.
When i read this portion, it just struck me. And it struck me really hard. Cuz i knew God was speaking to me.
The docs couldn't help me, the meds didnt, and nobody could. And i knew there was only one person left who could actually heal me completely. Why didn't i seek God much earlier then? i have to admit, the constant bouts of sicknesses had dampened my spirits and diluted my faith to a certain degree. I had doubts.
But God's Word is already clear that 'Without faith, it is impossible to please God'.
And i knew it was time to act and exercise my faith, like my dad told me before. He said, 'medicines are not a solution, the ultimate solution is God'.
I realized that prior to this, i was afraid of exercising my faith. But how could i anymore? if Hezekiah who was terminally ill could plead his case and cause even the great God to change His mind, i can too! God is not robot. He listens to our prayers and attends to our needs. Finally, God added 15 years to his life!
God is the same God yesterday, today and forevermore. We change, He does not. If He could do for Hezekiah many yrs ago, He can still do it for me today.
With this truth in hand, i decided to act on the Word of God and claim healing from the top of my head to the tip of my soles. I claimed it repeatedly and commanded all sicknesses to go in the name of Jesus. Cuz afterall, all believers have the authority. It has already been given to us. It is us who must act on it now.
After that i went to bed.:) The symptoms did not immediately go..it was there. But i ignored it, nullified it and slept peacefully.:)
And guess what? The next morning, once i woke up..all the symptoms and sicknesses were gone! Really praise GOD!
I was really, really elated that i was healed completely and that i dun have to miss sessions edi! :D
And i shared with some of the bros and sis about what happened.:)
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Just really wanna thank the Lord for my healing.
Truly, He taught me that nothing in this world in too hard for Him.Even if u have cancer.Im serious.
And i also thank the Lord for teaching me thru these episodes to put my entire faith in Him.
And i realized also another vital point which truly touched my heart --- the very fact that God is more interested in me than in what i can do for Him.
I was all out to reach out for Him during MHS, but God could see that i needed to renew my faith and exercise it. Thus He allowed me to go thru it the hard way so I'd learn :)
Do know that whatever u are facing today, be it problems or challenges, nothing is impossible with God!:D
